March 2010
9 posts
“…my brain, in thrall to its outlaw hormones, had become less an organ of...”
– Darkness Visible, William Styron
“This is a story about darkness and light, about sorrow and joy, about something...”
– Cinderella Retold, by Cynthia Rylant
“Remember Me When I’m Gone
Remember me when I am gone away,
Gone far...”
– Christina Rossetti
“Holly Golightly: You know those days when you get the mean reds?
Paul Varjak:...”
– Breakfast At Tiffany’s, Truman Capote
Woman crashes car while shaving bikini area →
synecdoche:
A woman who shaved her bikini area while driving caused a car crash in Florida Keys, prompting police to issue fresh warnings about safe driving, MyFox National reported Monday.
Megan Mariah Barnes, 37, crashed into another vehicle on Cudjoe Key after giving her ex-husband the wheel as she shaved her private parts.
Barnes was driving to meet her boyfriend in Key West and told...
January 2010
10 posts
And when it’s all said and done, there is only me.
No one can fix me, save me, break me, fail me.
There is only me.
Onwards
Feeling the tiniest bit better.
Reluctant to admit as much, out of fear that the good will be taken away from me.
Finding extraordinarily inspiring people online. We have both much to fear and learn from social media.
“The most profound statements are often said in silence.”
– Lynn Johnston
“Kiss me and you’ll know how important I am.”
– Sylvia Plath
“The past is a foreign country: they do things differently there”
– The Go-Between, L.P.Harley
Am I ever going to get to the stage where I don’t feel frustrated, or invisible?
“Mulder: If you have any doubts, any doubts at all, call off that surgery and...”
– The X-Files : I Want To Believe
“From the safety of the shadows, Barbara watched Lynley’s approach. His...”
– A Great Deliverance, Elizabeth George
First Book of 2010
The first Inspector Lynley novel.
Nothing like a tall, dark peer of the realm solving gruesome mysteries on the moors of England.
Le sigh, Lord Lynley. Le sigh.
December 2009
27 posts
“Sweetheart, please look at all of the comments here. A lot of strangers...”
– I found this comment on a blog….I’m not going to share where it was from (it was one of those anonymous ‘secret’ blogs) but the comment resonated with me so much I had to write it all down and record it before it got lost. I don’t think I’ve ever been so moved by...
2010
I’m hoping for big things.
Meh
I can’t believe people still think that getting over depression is a matter of “getting on with it” and “losing the negative thoughts”
If only it were that easy
A Smile Can Bring A Tear To Me
My 3-month old niece smiled at me today. A genuine, big smile.
There’s something so comforting about a smile from her. She’s too young to really understand, so there’s no ulterior motivations or meanings behind her smile. It’s just instinct.
She smiled at me because she felt moved to at that particular moment.
Absence
People think depression is about being sad, but it’s not even as simple as that.
It’s feeling a permanent state of numbness.
It’s the absence of feeling.
Trying
I haven’t been this lost in a long time.
Just trying to stay afloat.
One day at a time and all that.
6am and I haven’t slept yet. Days and nights are bleeding together. Is it December? Where did November go?
King Of Wishful Thinking
Sometimes I think that if only he could know about this, he would be flattered.
If it was filtered through his management, production studios etc, it wouldn’t be right.
Or maybe that’s just wishful thinking on my part.
Enough
Enough is such a final word.
I’ve had enough.
This has gone far enough.
I didn’t do enough.
I’ll never be enough.
I’m not good enough.
Enough is enough.
Unsure
I don’t know why I made this tumblr.
Perhaps it was because I felt a bit more free to speak my mind, without worrying about being respectful to what I’m doing. This is more honest.
I try to explain to people that I’m finding it difficult, but I don’t think anyone can really understand. And I bought it on myself, so how do I reconcile with that?
If there is a part of me...
In the grand scheme of things, what concerns me and what I’m worried about might not matter.
But it’s my experience, and my truth and for now I can’t look at things on a macroscopic scale. I’m lucky if I can even see my way through to tomorrow.
Shit
…
If
Sometimes I catch myself thinking “well, what if he did see this? and what if he agreed to help in some way?”
And then the voice inside me says “you’re joking, right? things like this to happen to people like you.”
How am I ever supposed to put myself out there if the self doubt continues?
“the worst enemy to creativity is self-doubt”
– Sylvia Plath
“It’s a long-term health condition. People will get bored of hearing about it....”
– ‘If I Could Talk, I’d Tell You’ My Thirteenth Sad Day, Saturday, October 31st, 2009
“I would love to have that, that adrenaline rush just from seeing someone....”
– Robert Pattinson, GQ Australia, November 09
Dilemma
Sometimes it’s upsetting, but mostly it’s just frustrating, that feeling of believing you have a good idea, when your normal instinct is to not believe in yourself or anything you come up with.
That’s the dilemma I have now - I know my idea has great potential and can help a lot of people (including myself).
But no one seems to want to listen, and I don’t have the...
EverydayHero EmsCharityKiss Page →
“An idea that is developed & put into action is more important than an idea...”
“Courage does not always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of...”
“There is not enough darkness in the world to extinguish the light from one small...”